october 16, 2010.. - 11:16 pm

pipo's strikes!


for the past 40 days.. I've been dying to death since the day we broke up.. everyday is another hell.. every morning when i wake i see her face hunting me... every night before i sleep.. i can feel her body beside me... every dream is sweet with her by my side, till i wake up and realize that I'm still stuck up in the past, in the sweet memories of her beside me, The i love you's , i miss you's and I'll never leave you, those words keeps on hunting me till now.. honestly all of my friends, family and other friends tells me to move on.. and my reply was always "duh? what do you think I'm doing?" haha! but to be honest? my mind setting was.. "I'll never move on, coz i don't want to forget you, us." until it took place.. the part where i realized that i need to wake up in the fantasy that nothing in this world is permanent, it's just that i didn't really understand why she didn't gave me another chance to fix things up and why is it that it was so easy for her to move on, forget me and forget about us.. was it because i was a hell of a partner? i really don't get it.. but since it's already over and i think im in the peak of waking up.. i just want to say that, sorry for being a stupid friend to all of you, you can't blame me,. coz all of you knows that this was the 2nd time I've fallen deeply in love to someone,. and when she left me she took the biggest part of me, that i even tried to commit suicide, but luckily after three STUPID failure, i got tired :)) and didn't had another thought of doing it again., I'm very lucky to have friends like you guys :] friends that i can count on,.. haha! duh! you know you can count on me too! :] it's almost over guys :] I'm beginning to start another life :] revised tets? not revised notes :) but revised me.. :] another me, a new me,. i am beginning to accept every fact that's already laid down in front of me.. I'm beginning to open my eyes :] it's even funny coz this whole day :] i went to the places that we used to go and ate to the places we used to eat, well every place brings back memories, happy memories, being with her.. funny but every place made me cry :] not totally cry,. teary eyes? and tears fell from my eyes, to my cheeks, and the wind blew like it was accompanying me.. i really don't know what to do.. people just stared at me.. while im siting on my motorbike.. it's kinda funny coz after the tears i laugh coz i remembered the time when she slipped because it was slippery.. then i realized that i need to go to baclaran church :] well i did everything i wanted today... ate bagoong rice at marikina, ate plato wraps at moa, srawberries n' cream from starbucks, when to Marikina River, Mall of Asia,Baclaran church and at my lola's place at Buting since that's the place where we used to go the first 3 months courting her.. :] i really think I'm gonna be okay now.. plus FEW bottles of redhorse with "sisiG" her moms specialty.. (i cooked it!) yea! it's was a very tiring day for me. but i think it's worth it.. few more tears for a better tomorrow. :] actually right now.. I'm thinking of her.. and im wishing that she's fine :] i want her to be happy and so am i.. if ever that it's just not the right time ? and if the real time comes that it'll be her and me? i think it'll be better :] but if not.. i am gladly accepting it :] coz i already had her. but i missed the train.. :] do you get me? it's better to love and lose that to never love at all.. ;] im gonna be okay coz i know that.. i have you guys.. family, friends at TROPA.. I'm super pwede malapit baka ata siguro magiging ok na :)) :P kidding :] ay! seryoso pala.. magging ok na dn ako :]


"wala namang nagsabing madaling mag-move on. ang importante, hindi mo niloko sarili mo na okay ka na kahit hindi pa.. time can only heal a broken heart. if you want to move on, do not rush yourself. let the tears fall until you're okay again. there's nothing wrong with crying."

it's not the end of the world is it? :D

"PAG PINUNA NYO GRAMMAR KO TAPOS KAYO SAKIN! :)) "